Every day I fake body confidence for my kids, especially in public. I’ll be standing on my paddle board smiling away at the kids, but inside I’m cringing.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate my body, it did a good job carrying and birthing three children in three-and-a-half years.
But I certainly don’t feel proud of my body. To be honest I’m not sure I ever did.
However, it’s my mission to never let my children know that it makes me cringe when they grab my thighs and stomach and affectionately call me their ‘chubby mummy’.
I fake body confidence in the hope that one day they won’t have to.
When we go swimming and I get out of the pool I don’t quickly rush to get a towel to cover myself up. Sure I might suck in my gut a bit as I see my reflection in the glass pool fence, but I let them see all of me.
Same goes for when I have to do a nude run through the house to get some item of clothing out of the washing basket.
On these occasions I waddle past them in my knickers, sometimes bra on, sometimes not. I don’t make fun of myself or hide anything.
Just recently, despite feeling very self-conscious during our beach camping trip, I waddled to and from the beach without a towel to hide my bumps and lumps.
As svelte women in thong bikinis walked alongside me into the ocean I tried not to hesitate. Instead I smiled at my children beckoning me into the water.
I never say horrible things about my body in front of my children.
Don’t get me wrong, I do tell them I need to get fitter and eat healthier food but I never talk about dieting or whether I like or don’t like my body.
I will not utter the world ‘fat’ except in regards to cooking and I won’t discuss putting on or losing weight in front of my kids.
Me looking body-confident, even though I’m not.
I’m getting better in regards to body love and I do feel that as I age I’m starting to accept my body a little bit more.
Or maybe I just don’t worry about the small stuff like I used to. That’s one of the best things about getting older. Less shits to give about a whole lot of things!
And maybe my fake body confidence for my kids will one day actually make me wholly embrace my body as it is.
It’s my aim to show my children that all bodies are beautiful no matter what.
The last thing I want for them is to place any importance on someone’s body shape or size.
Sure, it’s not easy with all the headlines about weight and highly stylised images we are bombarded with in trashy magazines and television.
But if I can teach them to have body confidence no matter what, then I will be a happy mumma.
Do you fake body confidence in front of your kids?